Tag: suicide
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oh no it’s march almost april
and no blog posts yet??? this means worsening depression! who can blame me; i am self-quarantining. well. the answer is always someone but a n y w a y s it doesn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. things are changing, and it may matter. it’s hard (hard!) for me to know, to […]
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and all the beautiful people in it
the title is a reference to the beautiful lana del rey song, “god bless america – and all the beautiful women in it” … actually, it’s straight up lyrics. i’m not tired. i’ve had two coffees. i refuse to be tired! tw suicide;my amitriptyline overdose anniversary is coming up. you know, the serious one? the […]
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bitter bitch (ocd i)
obsessions and/or compulsions and i’m suddenly more disorderedwell, not officially, until i get the test at leastbut i’m not sure why i think about suicide 3 times an hour without wanting to orwhy damp food on hard ceramic plates under cold water feels like it burns orwhy i can’t stop physically removing parts of myself […]
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cake ingredients
i am not sure when exactly i started to evolve into a newer, worse monster more like my dad, i guess. in words that aren’t mine: dna, like cake ingredients out of order just makes a mess or it can be in order. that’s from my mom, and it’s true how do controlling people find […]