Tag: self harm

• tw sa/sh but what’s the point of having a blog and never using it?

  i’m back on my vhs glitch bullshit, and here we go again. i made a vlogmas trailer/intro; but i don’t know if i’m doing vlogmas, even though i’ve been filming. i guess i should make my glitchy witch bitch 2021 youtube intro soon. other videos i made since then include but are not limited to: […]

  zélie

  December 5, 2020

  Personal Blog

  2020, blog, diary, mental health, miley cyrus, personal, photo, self harm, sexual assault, thc, vhs, video, videos, writing, youtube

• thinking about self harm without actually self harming

  i am full, i feel fullof bitterness and maggot-like creaturesi am rotting from the inside outmy organs are foul with the stench of feari wish to shine like goldi watch myself in a mirrordull instead of shiny yet in pain is there anything more ugly than meis there anything more beautifulthan some perfect tragedy executed […]

  zélie

  April 2, 2018

  Uncategorized

  2018, anxiety, doubt, fear, leeches, mental illness, poetry, self harm, writing

• not extinct

  i’m here. not extinct. for now.it was a meme, a cute tidbit from the netnow it lives inside my head forever tooi’m not extinct. see, i like thatto put it obviously: it implies i am endangeredbut still alive! what a joy. what a thing.something, at least, to be alive stilli can’t talk about how badly […]

  zélie

  December 14, 2017

  Uncategorized

  2017, borderline personality disorder, depression, major depressive disorder, me, mental health, mental illness, overdose, poetry, prose, self harm, suicidal ideation, suicide, writing

• a first step

  the girl on youtube tells me, and many other viewers, don’t kill yourself, because her sister did, and she suffers for her sister’s actions years latershe talks of the stinging and hurt afterthe questions and angershe means iti listen and for a few hours i am quietened my best friend on imessage tells me, and […]

  zélie

  September 21, 2017

  Uncategorized

  2017, boyfriend, family, first draft, friends, imessage, mental illness, poem, poetry, prose, self harm, skype, suicide, writing

• never had stitches

  i’ve never had stitchesnever felt the curved needle poke through my fleshwhen i fell backwards onto hard concreteand my head split openit was medical glue that they used to put me back together i’ve never had stitchesnever cut my skin so deep that the wound couldn’t heal itselfthere was that one time i probably should […]

  zélie

  August 22, 2017

  Uncategorized

  2017, chronic illness, health, injuries, injury, medical, medicine, mental health, mental illness, physical health, poetry, prose, self harm, stitches, suicide