Tag: ptsd
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sucker clown
the joke is on you; the joker’s on you? he’s a canonical rapist, so maybe. maybe i look just enough like harley quinn that i’ll suffer through another rape or several in my lifetime. i think about that, statistically. i think about anorexia mortality statistics, and bpd mortality ones. the joke is definitely on me. […]
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out of the ash box
i am more, so much more than just a plath wannabe in lifeyou are here, fighting for every second with my body and my beingi want them with you too but i don’t think you understand me or my strifei came out of the ash box, i came out of somewhere that left me screaming […]
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wishlist
buy me a pink low pile rug and pink furniture paint with primer mixed in anda new tall cat tower for my babygirl xenaand some 35mm film for my camera pay off all of my debt andhelp my mom repair her house and cover medical appointment copaysand ensure that my checking can always pay the […]
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sexual abuse
“Have you ever been sexually abused?” Silence. Absolute lack of conversation, or “I don’t know.” At this point, I am 16 years old, and usually pouty and angsty enough that nobody really feels sorry for the suicidal pink haired girl, maybe. I don’t know, I’m biased, I was the suicidal 16 year old. I was […]
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unhelpful blogging and how to keep doing it
I feel like my blog has been a bizarre mixture of not-posting-ever-at-all (for months), and spewing out word jumble onto here, possibly too often. I want to make something clear: this is me getting better, for me, and for you, and in healing through writing. I enjoy documenting my lows (although not experiencing them), even […]