…you guessed it (or maybe you didn’t), i covered i’ll make a man out of you from the original mulan movie:
and since i started with my most recent video, let’s work backwards through any others i’ve published since then:
okay, fair warning, i’ve made a lot of videos since i’ve written a blog post…
so what’s been up with me? well, i had my heart broken, by my ex, who claims he never broke up with me and who i have no recollection of breaking up with, but who is still my ex for some reason. funny how things work like that; like heartbreak. choking you.
i took and scanned and took more photos, but those, or most of those, are for later. i suppose i’ll share some scanned instaxes of me in a britney spears hoodie at the local lake;
more to share later.
for now, i return to my regularly scheduled mental breakdown.
they’re all covers….oops. a vlog soon. a birthday/hair vlog, hopefully.
now, here, have some instax high resolution scans. i cleaned two of these photos thoroughly first!
my 28th birthday cake, bought for the purpose of sitting on, was yellow cake, with strawberries & strawberry jam filling (2 layer) and also buttercream frosting in addition to the writing on the cake! it’s delicious.
i scanned some other things, but they are not mine so i will not share them (for now? forever?)
my hair is very cute, split blue and pink neon extensions. oh well; anyways.
i’m tired. i have MAYBE an hour before my med nurse gets here for my appointment.
xoxo zélie thorn
PS: i also have a brand new website that i’m working on, zelie dot tv
the title is a reference to the beautiful lana del rey song, “god bless america – and all the beautiful women in it” … actually, it’s straight up lyrics.
i’m not tired. i’ve had two coffees. i refuse to be tired!
tw suicide; my amitriptyline overdose anniversary is coming up. you know, the serious one? the one where i deliberately took more than the 26 years old at the time of his death (i was 26 a year ago) nick drake took and died, and the one where i woke up later in the sicu, intubated, with an iv in my jugular.
i am tired, of hurting, i suppose. i plan to stay alive! i have two beautiful purring daughters, xena and sabrina, my emotional support cats.
xena barely ate after that overdose until i was back. now, for clarity: xena normally has, well, quite an appetite!
i am editing a youtube video for the anniversary of the attempt (9/11/18) but i am not sure if it will be out in time.
i finally cleared every item off my scanner, and scanned some instaxes i had acquired:
as you can see, the photos are in varying quality.