i’m screwed and messed up, i know the blame lies mostly with me, but do you feel it too, or at least;
did you once briefly think your whole entire future was with me, too?
i’ll never know the answer and it eats me like maggots surviving off something once beloved.

i thought, for a week, we’d start sharing cellphone plans and beds, and continuing to do what i thought
was already the case! imagine my surprise to discover, in such a way, that it was not
i woke up and went outside to find you. i suppose that was right before i came inside and lost you.