i was watching a youtube video about brittany murphy with the quote “she knew how to be vulnerable without being the victim, somehow.” here’s the video i’m sure you can find it somewhere in there. it hit me close to home. i realized some things, though i don’t know what yet… they’re half-realized, and i am practically brain damaged according to how i feel.

perhaps i try too hard to numb the shit in order to cope.

perhaps.

okay, probably.

drinking red bulls and imbibing other substances, let’s see. who cares. okay.

here are some photos and videos, none of which are extremely recent/relevant, but here some of them are i guess?

and here are the youtube videos:

and there they are. we’ll see until the morning.

xoxo
zélie

ps reminder to take any medications you may be prescribed