the title is a reference to the beautiful lana del rey song, “god bless america – and all the beautiful women in it” … actually, it’s straight up lyrics.
i’m not tired. i’ve had two coffees. i refuse to be tired!
my amitriptyline overdose anniversary is coming up. you know, the serious one? the one where i deliberately took more than the 26 years old at the time of his death (i was 26 a year ago) nick drake took and died, and the one where i woke up later in the sicu, intubated, with an iv in my jugular.
i am tired, of hurting, i suppose. i plan to stay alive! i have two beautiful purring daughters, xena and sabrina, my emotional support cats.
xena barely ate after that overdose until i was back. now, for clarity: xena normally has, well, quite an appetite!
i am editing a youtube video for the anniversary of the attempt (9/11/18) but i am not sure if it will be out in time.
i finally cleared every item off my scanner, and scanned some instaxes i had acquired:
as you can see, the photos are in varying quality.
that’s all for now. maybe a post later. MAYBE.